ColorFlow LIFE is the brainchild of Eva Payne (and whatever creative energy lives outside of us that simply is looking for a vessel to be created through).

At heart, Eva is a pioneer and teacher. She has spent 20 years cultivating leadership and self advocacy skills in thousands of participants through the nonprofit she began while in college. She has her MS in Leadership and Management through the University of LaVerne and is Mother to six children age 18 through twin 6 year-olds. ColorFlow LIFE was created with the dream and goal to help positively impact individuals and communities through wholehearted living. Through years of experience and research, Eva has discovered a “bridge of tools”. When implemented, these tools can transform the way a person approaches the challenges they face in life. When someone can break down the things that hold them back from experiencing life fully, they can learn to recognize and live in a state of happiness, success, and flow.

From the Creator:

Many different “identities” to write about, so you can better grasp who I am, and why I write the things I do. Here are a few:

I am a Mother, a Daughter, a Step-Daughter (several times over), a Sister, a former Step-Sister, a Half Sister, a current and former Sister-in-Law, an Ex-wife, a girlfriend, a friend, and an acquaintance.

When I completed the StrengthsFinder assessment in 2011, my strengths were: Activator, Positivity, Ideation, Belief, and Strategic. 2017 update: After several years I retook the online assessment and had a few changes: Maximizer, Positivity, Activator, Strategic, & Connectedness.

VIA Institute on Character Assessment stated in 2017 that to be me means a combination of: Gratitude, Fairness, Forgiveness, Social Intelligence, and Hope

I hiked the Grand Canyon rim to rim in July of 2017 – hardest and most rewarding thing I have EVER done! Giving birth was easier for my body than that hike!

As a young person, I have worked in a movie theater, a drug store, on a game show, at radio stations, as a waitress, in a coffee shop, and as a temp.

I grew up in So Cal where I earned my high school diploma. I moved to Nebraska for undergrad  and received a Bachelor of Science in Nonprofit, Theater and English. I have a Master of Science in Leadership and Management, which I earned as a Mom with my six kids in tow.

I am so proud of my six children (and “adopted” countless more) and value their uniqueness.

Eva Payne stands with L’Oreal Paris President Carol J. Hamilton. Payne was one of 13 women named L’Oreal Paris’ Women of Worth for 2007.(Courtesy photo)

I started a nonprofit corporation when I was in college, for which I have received honors and awards over its 20-year run including: L’Oreal Women of Worth, Volvo For Life Finalist, DirecTV Hometown Hero, and featured in local and national press including MTV, Nickelodeon, People Magazine, Family Circle Magazine and on The Big Ten Network.  https://www.values.com/values-on-campus/13-eva

I have lived below the poverty level.

I have experienced PTSD and relentless verbal abuse from another (hurt people, hurt people). But I have learned that individuals express pain in different ways and I can find value in even these experiences.

I have friends/know people that live in some of the most challenging communities in the United States, barely getting by. I have friends/know people who are well-known and millionaires.

I have a parent who has been incarcerated.

I ran a half marathon … once in 2014. Working towards a second because I want to put the 13.1 sticker on my car!

I have been on stage, television, radio, and in print media.

I am not a victim to any of my life experiences.

I believe in non-human/other human intelligent life on other planets (perhaps even living on ours … spent far too much time researching this topic) and believe an undeniable amount of us will see/interact with “ET’s” in our lifetime. There is FAR too much evidence for anyone to convince me that “we are alone”. And frankly I never believed that slaves with wooden wheeled carts built the pyramids.

My parents never practiced a religion but I have always been drawn to it. I was baptized once as a child, and twice while I was in college. I have studied so many different religions, and practiced in several throughout my life. Today, I believe/know there is truth in each of them. Religion, for me, was/is a safe place, with clear cut boundaries. I needed to feel safe, loved and secure and religion (and its accompanying community of members) provided that for me.

I may or may not have been sexually abused when I was a child – my memory is terrible, but I believe boundaries were pushed.

I spend most of my time with my kids, my sisters, my friends, my dogs, and my boyfriend – kind of a homebody, yet I LOVE new adventures!

I am really over-the-top when it comes to Christmas.

I have seen and experienced the impact of several mental and physical diseases and other life challenges with those I love including; HIV/AIDS, Cancer, MS, Sex Addiction, Drug Addiction, Alcoholism, Narcissism, Autism, Dyslexia, Cystic Fibrosis, Homelessness, Depression and Anxiety.

I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE snuggling with my kiddos!!

I have several family and friends who would identify themselves as LGBTQ, including a Son and Sister.

I believe we are infinite beings and this life is just one of many.

I am not a huge fan of the news, particularly because it is so negative and manipulating.

I don’t curse.

I am addicted to sugar – working on weaning myself off : /

I am growing to love pets more and more each day – I have three dogs and appreciate their souls the more time I spend with them.

I find great joy in helping others.

I have had one miscarriage.

I enjoy watching Gaia TV, TedTalks, exploring YouTube for inspiration and discovering other shows, talks, documentaries that push me into a space of curiosity and exploration of truth.

I am worthy. I am strong. I am whole. I am exactly where I am suppose to be. I am love. I am doing my best. I am happy.

I live open to any and every possibility (or continue to do my best everyday). I find value in each experience (and yes, even the “bad ones” —might take a day or three). I find value in each person. #mytruth

Thank you for your interest in my blog, my company, and for joining me on this journey of standing in our truth and identities with no shame!


Eva Nekovar-Payne, MSLM